Age 23 has been really hard on me. That probably sounds a little crazy, but it's the truth. I always thought your 20's were fun, spontaneous, and something to look forward to. Maybe it's that way for some people; I can't speak for everyone. It surely hasn't been the case for me. Turning 21 was of course fun! I partied a lot that year, as long as my bills were paid I had no worries. 22 introduced some changes into my life, but I was still able to manage.
Now I am 23. I just turned 23 five months ago and it has been a rollercoaster already. I'm noticing that more changes are coming fast and hitting at full force. I can barely keep up.
*I'm starting to outgrow some of my friends which is very hard.
*I'm becoming less interested in things that were once fun.
*I'm in my first "real" relationship and to be honest, I have absolutely no idea what I am doing.
*Some days I want to continue college, some days I'm not sure if its the path for me.
*I love blogging, but I often question if this is what I am "supposed" to be doing.
*I've been trying to attain a deeper relationship with God. But I feel completely lost.
*I have no idea what I want to do with my life. One day I want to travel the world and move out of state, the next day I want to stay and establish my career.
*What do I want my career to be?
*I force myself to go out because I am bored, then the whole time I'm out I am ready to go home.
*It really bothers me that I am not sure what I am going to do with my life.
*I've worked at my current job for 6 years. The thought of working at my job for another 2+ years makes me cringe.
*Sometimes I want to live the #YOLO life... Some of my friends seem to really be enjoying life right now. But that's just not who I am.
*I've been a little jealous seeing those who seem to have it all figured out. :( (I'm human)
*It's hitting me that I am 23 years old with no savings account.
*I'm 23 and I am living check to check... I have a good job, my bills get paid, but I am living check to check.
*Watching people my age or younger than me on IG and Snap living it up with money to blow, all I can help but wonder is... "What am I doing (or not doing) with my life?"
*I care more about making a difference than attaining success and wealth... But I would also like to attain success and wealth...
*I am BORED! With everything, with life.
*I feel trapped in my daily/weekly routine.
*Half of my friends believe in X, the other half believe in Y, my boyfriend believes in Z... and I believe in A. Which brings me to my next point...
*I feel different and alone, like I don't fit in anywhere.
I guess I am just experiencing what it feels like to find myself. My life has been in an in-between stage for a little while now. Nothing is exciting, everything is just sort of "blah". Struggling with finding myself, my faith, and my purpose. Another challenge is accepting and becoming comfortable with this "new" person I am becoming. I think once I start to accept these changes and explore who I am and what I am about, I won't feel so trapped anymore. It's a process.
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